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Roller coaster ADJUSTMENT to life now!

September 6th, 2006 at 07:57 pm

Rare opportunity to find internet and the time to enter a new bog!

Many things have happened since my trip to Montana to attend my Grandfather's memorial services.

There was a huge lay off and work force cut at my work when I returned. Very hard as most of the people who are laid off, I work closely with. They wanted a budget cut in the HR dept to save the company in the millions almost to a billion! This is just for a small large company. They did not lay me off yet but I did get notice that my job position is being reevaluated and very possible it will be delimited, outsourced or moved out of the country. They do not know which way they are going with it yet and no timeline hint as well.

With my deafness, I strongly feel it will be difficult to find another HR related field. I decided to go back to school in January and start changing my life to the way I would like for it to be. I will study Occupational Therapist and have more or less 2 years left to get my degree. I will be so broke!!!! I am really hoping my job hangs in there until the end of December otherwise I have a huge debts and would force me to find another job ( I already have a night job) which will rob me of my school time. If I go to school part time, it will take me a good 5 or 6 years to finish so not an option for my age.

Truth is I am so scared; I already moved out of a comfy apartment and now rent a room which is hard to get used to, Will loose 85% of my income, will not be able to contribute to a retirement plan for awhile and will have to depend heavenly on the buses for transport. Can be challenging with the Bay Area people and raining winters.

A lot of me want to back out of the school dream and find another job who knows where with my limited skills and so on.... Just for money security... but truth is I am not happy working my butts off to make a rich company become more greedy. I want to directly help the people and the community and be proud of the work I do.

I am just so thankful I have more than a two weeks notice!!!!! More time to think and make adjustment. its hard to be like a college student when I have always had my own place since I was 17, I was married and now divorce and have a cat and now to rent out a room and have only a third of the fridge to store food.

I hope I make it!

5 Responses to “Roller coaster ADJUSTMENT to life now!”

  1. yummy64 Says:

    You'll make it.

    You are young, you are strong, you are willing to work to get what you want and sacrafice to get where you want. It may take a while but you have goal and a vision of where you want to be.

    I hate being told to be patient, but you need to be. Just keep doing what you are doing and you'll make it.

  2. LuckyRobin Says:

    Have you looked into grants and scholarships for your schooling? You may qualify as a displaced homemaker since you are divorced, you may qualify as a deaf person, you may qualify as an adult returning to college, if you are not white you may qualify for race related scholarships, you may qualify for scholarships just for being a woman. You should go down to the college you wish to attend and get their scholarship information. And research any companies that give scholarships to people in the field you want to go into. You may get enough to live on and pay for school and books.

    My DH managed enough scholarships one year to pay for a full year of school, and these were ones he simply applied for that no one else did because they thought it would be too hard to get. The great thing about grants and scholarships is they don't have to be paid back. He didn't even try until his last year of school so maybe he could have gotten a lot more if he had started sooner.

  3. boomeyers Says:

    Good luck! It is great you have a plan! Maybe you could buy a little fridge and keep it in your room and treat it as a "dorm" room. It will go by fast!

  4. freeme journey Says:

    Hang in there - I believe that challenges make us look at other options, some of which are often staring us in the face but we don't see them because we are so comfortable where we are.
    Everything always works out for the best - even if it doesnt feel like it at the time.
    Good luck!!

  5. Gruntina Says:

    Thanks for all of your encouragements!!!! I really needed a swift kick in the butt to put things in a positive perspective.

    Yummy64 - Patience!!! That is a big one for me. To start a new path and change of career, I do have to start over again and start on the bottom and work my way up. I just can't transfer at the same level. I will have to remind myself to be patience everyday.

    LuckyRobin - Thanks for your ideas and advices on tuitions. I am hoping many who do not know their options can learn from what you have told me. I do have my tuition and books paid for and thus the reasons I can go to school with a small part time job. My biggest challenge will be going from 2,800 monthly take home pay to 500 a month!! For the past years I have been shelling out min of 1500 to 2000 towards debts each month so I know I can live on 800 a month. It's tight but now I need to somehow rework my budget so I can survive on 500 a month! My rent is free but it comes with my share of 150 dollars a month for utilities. I have lots of homework and research to do now to prepare my way.

    boomeyers - Thanks for the positive outlook you reminded me. Yes its true that having a dream and to have a plan to try to make it happen is definitely a blessing. Just to have that opportunity, I should be thankful for. I have been thinking about buying a small refrigerator. Right now I am in the process of purchasing cabinets as I only have one small cupboard to store my dishes and food. I need more space. I will try to save for a refrigerator in the meantime.

    freeme journey- You are right! If it was not for the many lay0ffs at my work and the fear of not keeping my job really pushed me to pursue my dreams and future investment. I was comfortable at my job because it was decent money even though I did not really enjoy the work I do. It was a job that I would a very slim chance to find again with a different company so this is definite one of the best things that can happen to me. I just need to not step on the brakes so much with my fears and let the circumstance drive me.

    Thank you all!

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